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WHY IVF?

Twenty down, 20 to go!
Hooray! Halfway there! And in case you don't believe 20 weeks is a milestone worth celebrating, consider that it's longer than a semester at college—or any relationship you had in high school - LOL!
AND my belly is getting bigger :)

Looking back on the whole IVF process with Dr. Denker at Palm Beach Fertility Center... to be here... 20-weeks and feeling the baby kicking and moving is SUPER AWESOME! It was all SOOOOO worth it.
I am trying to watch what I eat... as it is easy to have a "free" pass to eat anything you want while prego. I am already a curvy gal, so I do not want to gain so much weight it is unhealthy for baby or myself. So I am indulging some, but eating pretty healthy.
The baby weighs about 10.5 ounces and 6.5 inches long from crown to rump (not including legs). And he is moving like crazy! I think I have a night owl as he likes to move and kick all night - while I am trying to sleep.
I am going to start working on the nursery soon... my husband needs to paint first! Ughhhh, glad that is not my job - LOL.
LADIES, if you have been trying to conceive and have been unsuccessful... PLEASE pick-up the phone and call Dr. Denker at Palm Beach Fertility Center. Trust me when I say he and his team are THE BEST!
New ultrasound pics coming soon :)
Have a great day!
Jennifer
"YOUR MOOD SWINGS ARE GIVING ME WHIPLASH"
I have a GREAT video of my last ultrasound at Dr. Denker's office - it's amazing!! I can see the baby opening and closing his mouth and sucking his thumb. I will post the video tonight!
Tomorrow is my 18-week ultrasound appointment and I am excited! This is the ultrasound that most of the time will be the GENDER ultrasound! I am going to re-confirm that it is for sure a BOY!
Sometimes based on what genetic testing you are allowing this ultrasound will look for genetic markers (Downs).
Update on my bleed: I have not bled in a few weeks... which means I will probably bleed soon. I hope not. My doctor insist that it's the second baby that did not make it trying to make its way out (breaking-up, shifting) that is cause the bleeds. I am trying not to let it freak me out. I wear a panty liner all day as I have brown old blood 99% of the time.
I am 18-weeks this week (Thursday) and I feel good. I am not showing like I thought I would. I think it's because I was "curvy" to begin with and the cute baby bump I should have is under the fat I have. It's kind of pushed my fat out a bit... but I don;t think I look pregnant - which sucks!
The baby is about 5 1/2 inches long and 5 to 7 ounces in weight. That sounds really tiny to me. I can feel him inside me! Or at least I think I can - LOL. It feels like something pinching me - kinda. Or a very light twitch/thump. I would not say "fluttering" as everyone else says. The baby likes music, I play music on my belly at night and in the mornings and he moves around most of the time. He likes steel drum music the best - like his dad!
Well that's it for now... tomorrow I will have more updates about how the baby is doing. I am excited to see him and hear his heartbeat for sure!
Just keep moving!
Funny how everyone who's never been pregnant assumes all the changes you're going through are just located in your uterus. Nobody mentions the stuffy nose, the itchy skin, the sciatica, the outbursts of emotion, the fatigue, the sickness and dizziness. But just remember that all the funky things your body is doing are leading up to the big payoff of snuggling up with that little muffin in just a few months.
Your Body...
No, you don't have a new superpower, although it'll feel like it because you're able to smell pizza, burnt toast or a pulled-pork sandwich from miles away. Your heightened sense of smell isn't the only new trick your nose is doing. You're probably noticing some extra nasal congestion and maybe even some nosebleeds to go along with it. Clearly your sense of smell is in overdrive, so try to avoid walking past the BBQ Pit or Curry Emporium. But enough about your nose. Let's talk about your ever-enlarging breasts. Your boobs might still be tender, especially your nipples, and they're continuing to grow, grow, grow. You may even be able to squeeze a little colostrum (nutrient rich pre-milk milk) out of your boobs at this point. (If you can even touch your nipples without writhing in pain, that is.)
The Baby...
Your baby is already mugging for the camera as she practices all sorts of facial expressions, such as squinting, yawning and grimacing. Your baby's skin is still translucent and wrinkly, not unlike an old man's, but more fat will soon accumulate under the dermas to plump him/her out. If you could peer inside right now, you'd be able to see all of her veins under her skin. And speaking of veins, your baby's heart now pumps about 25 quarts of blood per day! Also, his eyes are now locked and loaded at their final destination, facing forward rather than to the sides. (Whew!)
Your baby weighs about 3 ounces this week and measures between 4 and 5 inches.
Hurdle #... (I forget)
Well, that's it for now. I go back on May 19th for the next big appointment. Fingers and toes crossed. I will keep you updated.
Jen
Transition... change.
My last appointment with Dr. Denker and his staff was yesterday and it went very well. The baby is great... PERFECT is the word Dr. Denker used. I am 12-weeks now and ready to transition to my OBGYN.
Phil and I are sad to leave the care of Dr. Denker and his staff but we knew this day would come and I am ready to meet my new Doctor... which will be next week! He will pale in comparison... I just know it :)
We have decided not to find out if it's a Boy or a Girl. We are going to let it be a surprise! I know... crazy! My Mother already says this is unacceptable - LOL.
I found this poem that I wanted to share :)
A Boy Or A Girl
© Regina M. Linn
At first you moved only a little. I could always find you, right in the middle.
As time went on, you really started to grow. It wasn't a whole lot, in fact, it was rather slow.
Before I knew it you were all over the place. It kind of felt like you were running a race.
People would ask me if you were a boy or a girl. I would sit and wonder if you would have curls.
There are so many things I really want to know. But, you are hidden inside, so the answers don't show.
How much will you weigh?
How tall will you be?
What color is your hair?
Will you even like me?
I hope and pray you feel like you belong. I never want you to feel like you are alone.
Your Dad and I planned you from the start. You my dear child were made straight from our hearts.
There will be no one like you, not any place in the world. It really doesn't matter if you are a boy or a girl.
We are both so happy that you even exist. The gender doesn't matter, you'll be hard to resist.
I hope I make you proud that I am your mother everyday. Because you have filled my dreams in more ways than words can say.
It won't be long before I can look you in your eyes. I can feel the excitement growing, I know I'm going to cry.
Don't worry my angel, those tears will be of joy. It won't matter to me if you are a boy or a girl.
12-weeks BABY!
This week I will be 12-weeks and moving into my second trimester. Which I hear is a WHOLE lot better than the first. Let's hope...
My first trimester I experienced weight loss (9lbs), morning sickness bad, urge to urinate a lot, breast tenderness, major mood swings and a whole other host of things... LOL! My husband has a longer list :)
Moving into my second trimester those things will hopefully go away...
I have noticed that this week I cannot quite get my pants to fit just right. The buttons want to close... but don't, LOL. So I went a bought some new dresses that have lots of room and they make me feel better. I read in my books that my uterus is about the size of a grapefruit so at some point the clothes will stop fitting. Just wish it was later :)
I went for another ultrasound with Dr. Denker on Friday and the baby was very active at 11-weeks & 2 days! It was moving and was flipped up-side-down. The little hands were moving and it was PRECIOUS! I only get one more appointment with Dr. Denker and his staff before I am released to my OBGYN. I had to pick a OB as my regular OB does not deliver in the hospital I need to be at. I got a lot of recommendtations from the girls at work so I made a good choice I am sure.
This Thursday at 2pm will be my final appointment with Palm Beach Fertility Center. I tried to convince Dr, Denker to deliver my baby... but I did not succeed... LOL!
I spoke to my OBGYN this week and they tell me now is the time for Nuchal Translucency Screening. Between 11 and 13 weeks. The test is a prenatal test (also called the NT or nuchal fold scan) can assess your baby's risk of having Down syndrome and some other chromosomal abnormalities as well as major congenital heart problems. So I am going to have the test this week or next... not sure just yet. I am kind of nervous about it... it's not 100% accurate, so there is some room for error. But I am going to get over it and do it. It will not change anything anyways... but just to be prepared is good.
So I will let you know how Thursday goes at Dr. Denker's office. I am sure everything will be fine. Dr. Denker told me I need to practice saying, "That's good isn't it?" instead of "Is that bad?". I am a half glass empty kind of gal if you have not already picked-up on that... LOL!
So talk to you soon!
Jennifer
Made through 2-weeks...
Tomorrow I have an appointment at Dr. Denker's office for ultra sound number 1,000,001 (kidding, LOL). I love having U/S as it shows me the little baby-bean is okay.
I will be 11-weeks this weekend... so only another two weeks and I will be in my second trimester. First trimester = Tough!
I have been working and trying to take it really easy. I am scared the bleed with come back. I guess that's because it seems like every few weeks some complication happens. I would just like to have a normal remaining pregnancy. I feel like we are over the humps... but you never know.
So let's talk morning sickness... ughhhhhh! Starting at around 8 weeks I started getting sick. It's week 11 and I am still sick. I have lost 9 pounds, which is very common in the first trimester as most women are sick and have trouble keeping liquids and solids down. That's me for sure! Dr. Denker called me in these little "miracle pills" that dissolve on my tongue and the nausea is GONE! Poof... like magic!
Ohh and smells... they really do make you GAG! LOL...
Bone in chicken makes me ill. Not a big fan of trash can anymore, I swear I can smell it from a mile away. Phil calls me a blood hound :(
Well... I will check-in tomorrow. I am taking Flip Video to the Doctor tomorrow so everyone can see the office and the U/S images. Yeah!
:)
Jennifer
Whirl Wind... but a baby is coming!!
They did an ultra sound and found Baby A was doing great and Baby B was not doing good. No heartbeat for Baby B. We knew this might happen. Dr. Denker had prepared us for this. We are not sure if Baby B was the reason for the bleed. Baby B has not been doing good from the start. Measuring two-weeks behind, late implantation and enlarge yolk sac. All abnormal.
I was ordered back on bed rest... (mind you I am a bear on bed rest - LOL). Thank goodness for family - my husband, mama and dad have all taken great care of me.
7 days later... today... I went to see Dr. Denker and got some great news. As thought Baby A is perfect! Heartbeat great and you should see the little bean picture! It grew so much... it has little legs and hands :) Looks like a little teddy bear! We are measuring 9 weeks & 4 days!
The bleed has stopped and hardly no clot left in my uterus. The Doctor was very pleased! As are we! Everything measured right on schedule and looked good. I have been released to light work duty again - so I have to take it very easy.
Here is today's US scan. You can see Baby A doing GREAT! Right under Baby A is Baby B's sac and you can see my body is trying to absorb it. Which it will eventually.
So we have one healthy, beautiful baby (thanks to Palm Beach Fertility Center / Dr. Denker). We are thrilled and hoping for no more hurdles. But we are ready just in case. It was great to have a good appointment today. It was amazing to see our little baby.
Another appointment next Friday... so please pray for a week with no hurdles.
It's TWINS!!!!!!
I have not blogged in a while as I have been in a period of panic the last few weeks. Panic because I found out we were pregnant and then because I had a small complication. I had a sub-chronic bleed in my uterus. It sounds bad... it seems to happen to a lot of people. Dr. Denker put me on bed rest for two-weeks, feet up!! I only got up to potty and shower. The first week was okay... the second week was brutal. Bed rest is not all that great - LOL.
I have several ultrasounds during that time and found that there are twins. The bleed stopped but is still in there slowly leaking out. So I am taking it very easy. The bleed has not affected the babies. Baby A is very strong and doing well. Baby B has struggled. It had delayed implantation and now the yolk sac is measuring enlarged. SO there is a chance Baby B will not make it. My body will just absorb the baby and it will not affect Baby A. It's all in God's hands now so I am just doing everything Dr. Denker says and hopefully all will be GREAT!
I am still on my Progesterone shots and Estrogen patches, prenatals and some Magnesium-Oxide for the old bleed.
I will say this... I am doing GOOD! I am thrilled the bleed stopped and Baby A and B are growing. It's sad about Baby B but there is nothing I can do. I just have to take care of us and see what happens.
I was release for light work duty and this week is my first week back.
THANK GOODNESS!
I read two novels while on bed rest - Twilight series - yes I am obsessed!
Phil is doing GREAT. He is so optimistic about everything.
These early weeks are always scary for all pregnant women. You are wondering if the babies will make it, get through that first trimester, worrying is always happening... it's tough.
We heard both babies heart beats last week. It was unexplainable. My sister told me when I got married... right before I walked down the isle... she said, "this will be an amazing day but know you have days that will surpass this fay by leaps and bounds!" Boy was she right... I thought if that when I heard those hearts... I swear my heart literally changed.
I am praying and hoping that all works out and we have the family we always dreamed of. Keep us in your thoughts and I will update you this weekend as my next appointment is Friday. I know all will be well and we will be moving forward.
Thanks for sharing this with me and thanks for your thoughts!
Jennifer
14 DAY WAIT IS OVER!
I went in for my pregnancy test this morning and was told by 2pm I would know.
Talk about the longest freaking 5 hours of my life.
Listen to this...
http://dmanager.streamtheworld.com/players/default_audio_player.php?audio_file_id=100613641
That was the call I got and Dr. Denker and his Staff had a GREAT idea to record the call. I now have that forever! As you can hear I was nervous and scared when he called and then SHOCK! I think I said OHH MY GOD fifty times... and then Phil said it too. So amazing!!
We transferred 3 embryos!!!
I then laid flat for almost an hour before getting up. I was nervous the embryos were going to "fall-out" but Eliza and Dr. Denker said that would not happen. I know have to be on bed rest for 48 hours. No NOTHING for 2 days. I am okay with that!! Bed, sleep, rest sound good right now.
I have a picture they gave me of the three embryos... can you believe I have a picture of what might be our baby or babies... LOL! Take a look... AMAZING RIGHT?

What Dr. Denker and his team did today was a miracle. I am in shock that I have three in my belly. I guess I need to stay grounded however... the embryos need to implant into my uterus now. If they do - I will be pregnant... if they don't I will not. The embryos float around for a few days before implantation.
The killer part is we have to wait 14 days until our pregnancy test! It's hard to think that something we want so bad could not work out. Phil says I need to stay positive BUT I cannot help but to prepare myself for the bad. Prepare for the Bad and hope for the Best... that's my motto!
THOSE 14 days will be awful I bet... I need to stay busy!
For now... I will enjoy this day for what it is.
A perfect transfer as Dr. Denker said... we could not pray or ask for anything more.
Talk to you soon.
TRASFER DAY 1-31-10
We know 8 eggs fertilized and today we find out how many stayed viable.
Dr. Denker says he will transfer up to three if possible!
So we will go and get acupuncture first, then the transfer... I will let you know what happens!
This could be it... this could be the day that changes everything!
OMG!!
Jen
14 EGGS, 8 FERTILIZED!
Well our egg retrieval was Thursday and Dr. Denker took out 14 eggs!
We are thrilled, happy, scared and nervous. I got to the office at 9:00am on Thursday and Eliza met me at the door. She is so great! Phil tried to keep me calm the night before (but I was so nervous). The anesthesiologist Nicole was amazing and put me in a "twilight" that was GREAT! Dr. Denker went in and took out 14 eggs. I do not remember anything from the procedure. I do remember coming out of the anesthesia and feeling super loopy! I was very tender afterwards. I started my progesterone inserts and antibiotics. I know sounds like so much fun - right! LOL. I will be taking the inserts for several weeks even after I am pregnant (hopefully).
Phil also gave his "stuff" Thursday (he did a great job) so that the embryologist could fertilize our eggs that same day. Her name is Blanca and she is full of amazing talent. She took our eggs and sperm and did her magic!
Then we waited... we knew Dr. Denker would call us on Friday and tell us how many of the 14 eggs he took out fertilized. I do not know what the normal is but I was hoping at least half fertilized. It was a tough night... we prayed and prayed that the eggs would fertilized. Friday we got the call from Dr. Denker and over half the eggs fertilized... 8 eggs fertilized!
I had decided to go to work Friday after the egg retrieval procedure to work a little so when I got the call I knew Phil would be thrilled. My Mama was super excited and my Dad was happy too. We were all so happy that we had fertilized eggs to transfer! I did lave work early Friday to rest and relax... I was so sore.
So Irena called me and told me SUNDAY is the big day! Transfer day! It seems like this whole journey has lead to this point. Tomorrow is Sunday and the big day... Dr. Denker will put 2 maybe three embryos into me and we then wait 12 to 14 days to see if the embryos implant. That will be the longest 12 to 14 days ever!! So around Valentines Day we will know if this worked or not. I know there is a chance it could not work so I am trying to stay grounded. But I feel God has opened all these doors for a reason so I am hopeful and positive!
Tomorrow we go at 8:30a for acupuncture then 9:30a is the transfer. I have to stay off my feet for two days. Wow... I am in a little bit of shock that we are at this point :)
Phil and I are so happy and nervous to see the outcome. God willing we will have a family!
Stay tuned... here comes the exciting part!
Peace,
Jennifer
IT'S TIME... EGGS ARE COMING OUT!
What a whirlwind few days!
I have been going to Dr. Denker every morning since last Friday. When you are on your last few weeks you have to go almost everyday for monitoring... blood work and ultra sound, blood work and ultra sound.
On Friday I had made around 9 eggs and they are maturing nicely (you want the eggs to mature at the same rate). The eggs on Friday were about 8 to 9mm in size. Sunday they measured around 13 to 14mm and Monday they shot up in size to 16 to 17mm and this morning they were 17 to 20mm in size. Dr. Denker and Irena were both pleased.
They told me once my blood work came back this afternoon they would tell me if I could go one more day (letting the eggs mature one more day) or if the "trigger" shot was happening today. Well blood work came back and we are doing trigger shot tonight at 10pm. Which means egg retrieval is Thursday morning at 9:30a. I AM SO EXCITED!! Nervous... but excited!!
Now about egg retrieval... it's considered surgery. They will put me "under" anaesthesia or twilight as some say. i will not feel anything (thank goodness) and will wake up with no memories of what happened. LOVE THAT! Phil will be by my side and the sweet Eliza from Dr. Denker office will also be my my side. I have a lot of amazing support around me. I am super blessed to have so much support!
Once the eggs are out they will start working their magic on Phil's sperm and fertilize my eggs. Then we wait around 3 days to see how many fertilize and survive. The transfer should be around Sunday or Monday.
I cannot believe we are on the home stretch! I am trying to keep myself grounded... because lots of things can go right and wrong from this point forward. We are praying hard.
I will update you after the egg retrieval. Dr. Denker said I will be sore... GREAT! Well after a week of internal ultrasounds and blood work this should be simple (hey, at least I am out!).
Keep us in your thoughts! YEAH :)
Progress - LOVE IT!
Well another GREAT doctor appointment today. I started my shots on Monday 1/18 and today I went in to check my hormone levels and have an ultrasound, to see how many eggs I had produced and how they looked.
I was nervous that I had NO eggs actually... silly I know. I had 9 eggs so far! They're all the same size too, so that is GREAT news. 4 days of shots and 9 eggs! Not to bad.
I continue the shots today, Saturday and Sunday (I may have to go back for blood work and ultrasound on Sunday).
It all seems so real now... looking at the eggs and knowing we are less than a week away from egg retrieval. WOW! If you could see me in my office right now - LOL!
I am trying not to get over excited as there is a chance that it may not work. After the transfer we wait 14 days for the pregnancy test. I hope all of this works... but you have to stay grounded as well.
Dr. Denker came by today and gave me a thumbs up... that made me feel good! Eliza and Irena were totally great yet again. LOVE THEM! No matter what I am feeling I call them and they walk me through it. I could not ask for more.
PS: Phil pulled out a baby blanket my Mama gave me three years ago when we started trying... he draped it over the chair... YIKES!! I think he is excited :)
Be back Sunday with an update.
Jen
It's SHOTS, SHOTS and more SHOTS!
I was worried it would be overwhelming... but they had everything pre-bagged with directions and explanations! Phil will be giving me the shots at night every night this week. Hope he was paying attention - LOL!
Now the shots I am taking this week will speed up the production of my eggs. They want my body to make as many eggs as possible this week and next week. Every time I go into the office this week they will do an ultrasound to see how the eggs are maturing and blood work to check my hormone levels. If something is off they will adjust my meds as needed to get me on track! The next 7 days will be interesting!
All weekend I was a bit nervous about starting the shots - but again my worries were wasteful as Irena and Eliza and Dr. Denker took great care of us and made everything feel smooth and positive! I cannot imagine having to go through this process with any other team! They truly go the extra mile to make all their patients feel clam, relaxed and informed. I could not ask for anything more. SERIOUSLY!
If you are reading this blog and you are having trouble conceiving - please trust me and call Dr. Denker (ask for Eliza Roberts) and set-up a consult. It will not hurt you to just meet with the team at Palm Beach Fertility Center to see if they can help you.
So this Friday I go back and see if the meds are working! I will update you Friday as to what is happening. We are on the home stretch now.... only two weeks and we will have our egg retrieval and transfer! We are so close!
Peace,
Jennifer
Keep moving forward!
Our appointment on Wednesday went GREAT! The SIS procedure and Trial Transfer were simple and painless! All test were normal. The SIS went quickly... Dr. Denker and his staff are so calming and quick! I was a little nervous but Dr. Denker put my worries at ease yet again!
After the procedures we meet with our nurse Irina (who is amazing!!!!!!). She went over our dates, meds and pregnancy plan. I listened and was overwhelmed! I cannot believe the timeline they gave me!
Next week Wednesday I stop my birth control. The following Monday 18th I go for my Doctor appointment where they give me my injection meds and show me how to take them, inject them and when to take them. I take those shots for the next two-weeks going to the doctor almost everyday to check my levels so they can monitor my meds (taking them up or down as needed). Our egg retrieval is expected for around the 28th!! Until that point all these meds I will be taking will be building my eggs up. Dr. Denker wants to retrieve as many eggs as possible! The more the better.
I will update you on my shots once I'm told how they work and how many times I have to take them. I am not looking forward to all the shots - but I gotta do what I gotta do!
I am trying to stay stress free as well and relaxed.
I kinda got excited today about the possibilities of us actually having a precious baby! Phil and I are already imagining the baby room. I try not to let myself get to far ahead of myself... but it's hard sometimes!! I pray to God that this works...
Nite!
THIS IS AN IMPORTANT WEEK!
HAPPY NEW YEAR! Wow what a whirl wind since my last blog. The holidays and family... travelling - YIKES!
Okay so I have some exciting news... This week I go for my Planning Appointment and also my SIS and Trial Transfer procedure. My appointment is Wednesday and Phil and I are thrilled and a bit nervous! Eliza (aka: God Send) at Palm Beach Fertility tells me the following will be on tap for my appointment:
- Planning Discussions. We will be given dates for our Egg Retrieval, in depth talks about medications and injections, ovulation and cycle planning, acupuncture and nutritionists planning PLUS the BIG DATE for the actual transfer - IVF! So much information will be covered on Wednesday - whew! I better bring a note pad!
- SIS procedure and Trial Transfer. This test will detect the presence of polyps, myomas or any other problems that could interfere with the implantation/pregnancy or increase risk for pregnancy. The SIS will be scheduled between day 5 to 9 of your menstrual cycle. Dr. Denker will clean my cervix with Betadine to keep the test under sterile conditions. A small catheter will be inserted through the cervix into my uterus. Once in place a small amount of saline will be injected allowing Dr. Denker to better visualize the walls of my uterus. This will show Dr. Denker all he needs to know for the actual embryo transfer (IVF). He will make notes so that he can be prepared for the actual IVF procedure. The SIS and Trial Transfer is very important. The test is not painful and causes mild cramping like menstrual cramps. The procedure takes only 5 minutes!
Dr. Denker started me on Birth Control last month so that I would not ovulate any more. He wants to save up all the eggs possible. I have not been on Birth Control in 10 years. I was a bit worried as to what I would feel like... NO PROBLEM. I have felt really good. I do wonder what I am going to feel like once I start all the meds and injections that will build up my eggs (hormone city). I bet my husband is not looking forward to that! LOL!!
All I can think about is that we might actually be pregnant in a few months. I just can barley contain myself. Phil is a new person... I can tell he thinks about it all the time. He is so excited. I am trying not to get too excited as I know there is a chance that the IVF may not work. This is not a 100% solution. I want to keep myself grounded in case it does not work on the first try. I know Dr. Denker has a 20% higher success rate than other fertility centers in the area... so I have THE VERY BEST!!!!
I will keep you posted...
